Sangat cinta dari awal bertemu hingga sekarang sampai-sampai rela melakukan apa saja untuknya. Diminta meninggalkan semua teman, sahabat, ga boleh les nyetir, ga boleh ikut klub bela diri, diminta nemenin kemana aja, melakukan apa saja, dengan senang hati dilakukan.
When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case, I could offer you a warm embrace, To make you feel my love.
When the evening shadows and the stars appear, And there is no one there to dry your tears, I could hold you for a million years, To make you feel my love.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet, But I would never do you wrong, I've known it from the moment that we met, No doubt in my mind where you belong.
I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue, I'd go crawling down the avenue, No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do, To make you feel my love.
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true. Nothing that I wouldn't do, Go to the ends of the Earth for you, To make you feel my love.
Waktu berjalan cepat saat bersamanya. Tanpa disadari 4 tahun sudah kisah ini. Masih merasa seperti awal kisah bermula. Bercanda, ketawa, menangis, haru, bahkan deg deg an itu masih sering hinggap di jantung saat bersamanya. And now we're 4 years on, Feels like we've just begun, Never forget this is were we belong, Everytime that we talk about moving on, It turns into a song, Couse together were strong, Like the place we come from, This is where we belong.
Selama 4 tahun rasanya tak ada yang berubah. Rasa ini masih sama. Selama ini banyak yg bilang kalau lama-lama bakalan pudar rasa kami. Tapi aku ga percaya, aku ingin buktikan kalau tidak semua hal akan berubah karna berjalannya waktu. And although time has passed, I still get surprised, At the pulling in my chest, When I know you're coming by, If this feeling's proving anything, It's not everything, Is gonna change with time, You're still mine.
Diakhir tahun 2012, dia mulai berubah perlahan-lahan. menjadi orang yg berbeda sedikit demi sedikit. Ikut sebuah komunitas yg membuat dia menjadi lebih sering bersama teman-temannya dan melupakan aku. Dulu dia bilang di tahun 2010 kalau dia minta waktu 2 tahun untuk melakukan semua kegiatannya, setelah itu sepenuhnya waktunya hanya untuk aku. Jarang bercanda, tak peduli aku punya masalah atau tidak, apalagi belakangan, bertemu jarang. Dia lebih memilih bersama teman-temannya, di fb, twitter, line, hampir tiap hari bertemu, bahkan saat bersamaku dia bercerita tentang teman-temannya di komunitas. Aku?? hanya sebagai batu yg mengganjal kehidupannya, pengemis perhatian pada seseorang yg aku cintai dan segala-galanya bagiku. When you were here before, Couldn't look you in the eye,
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
In a beautiful world,
Oh, I wish I was special,
You're so very special.
But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here,
I don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control,
And I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
When I'm not around,
You're so very special,
I wish I was special.
He's running out the door,
He's running out,
He's run, run, run, run, run.
Whatever makes you happy,
Whatever you want,
You're so very special,
I wish I was special.
But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here,
I don't belong here, mm,
I don't belong here.
Saat ini aku berpisah dengannya. Rasanya terlalu singkat, terlalu pahit. Semua impianku terbang bersama angin badai yg menghantam hidupku. Yg aku minta hanya 1, kembali seperti dulu. Jika tidak bisa, tinggalkan komunitas itu, tepati janjinya 3 tahun yg lalu. Tapi dia tidak mau. Tanpa disadarinya dia menyakiti aku berulang-ulang kali.
Since you're not worth my love,
I haven't given up, I'm Stronger than that, And though my heart will break, I'm takin' back my faith, Cos right now my world is spinnin' too fast, But you won't be the end of me, If you were the one you would not hurt me so bad. You gave me the world, Gave me the world to take it all away, All you left me was yesterday, And this space in my heart, Now it's slowly tearin' me apart, I'm takin 'all that I learned from you, I'll make it something I'll never do, I can't be who you are, You taught me how to break a heart.
I'll make it through this pain, My dreams won't call your name, I'm Stronger than that, Cos I still know how to love, Know that will be enough, And this moment will fade into the past, You won't be the end of me, If you were the one you would not hurt me so bad. I'm taking back my faith, I'm taking back my life, I don't care for who you are, Cos you taught me how to break a heart, How to break a heart.
Mencoba membiarkan semuanya. Tak mungkin aku paksa dia untuk tetap merasakan apa yg aku rasakan seperti dulu. Mungkin dia jenuh, bosan bersamaku dan ingin mencari hal lain yg lebih menarik, topik yg berbeda, orang yg berbeda, atau bahkan mungkin dia merasakan sesuatu pada wanita lain yg tak lagi dirasakannya padaku.
It well may be,
That we will never meet again,
In this lifetime,
So let me say before we part,
So much of me,
Is made of what I learned from you,
You’ll be with me,
Like a handprint on my heart,
And now whatever way our stories end,
I know you have re-written mine,
By being my friend.
I still love you, forever more and more. I'll keep our dreams even if we're not to be together, become together. Dan aku memilih untuk sendiri seumur hidup jika tidak bersamamu CINTA.
